beat.of.my.heart

lesson to learn

2010-04-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

i saw this saying on one of the car when i was on the way to HELP

" Be soft-spoken and forgiving ,
even if the reason in on your side "

it's meaningful and true :)

when your loved one is gone

2010-01-23T17:27:00.000+08:00

No one knows about tomorrow
In short, when you actually
become aware of the fragility of life,
you will see your life differently.

There is noticeable shift in your priorities,
an intensive soul-searching for new meanings,
and the use of your energy for
what is really important.

You realise that the two least
important details
are usually inscribed upon the tombstone-
dates of birth and death.

You will not be remembered
for the length of your years, but for
the breadth of your sympathies for others,
the depth of your appreciation for beauty,
the height of your love.

Through this personal transformation,
You experience an opportunity for growth
by shedding your attitudes
that prevent you
from living life-
strengthening those qualities
that add depth to your being.

The real tragedy is
to die
before you live.

As you discover so much
about your beloved-
the hurts, fears, hopes -

so are you learning
so much about yourself.

Each day is another day of life
to be enjoyed together
as fully as you can !

i'm a weirdo

2010-01-12T15:19:00.000+08:00

friends i ADD
enemy i SUBTRACT
hardcore i TO THE POWER OF
stress i MULTIPLY
love i DECIMAL POINT IT
compassion i ZOOM IN
when you care i ZOOM OUT
helping others i INFINITE IT
music IN MY BLOOD
traveling IS MY DRUG
giving up is MY SUICIDE
aiming for perfection is MY ROUTINE

Vow Of Truth

2009-12-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

I see you so clear as I shut my eyes,
Waiting for you to be back close to me.
I ponder for long but slowly they flee,
memories; I watch, they swiftly pass by,
like shadows are chased from the morning skies,
causing a feeling that drags me sadly
down to a realm where hope I cannot see.
A river couldn't hold the tears I cry.

Though you can't be here now, I surely wait
and if you doubt, I ask that you don't.
For as long as I breathe, I will love you.
No one can forever separate fate,
no matter how hard or long they do want.
To you I promise, remain alwasys true.

poem

2009-12-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

Shelther words from my mouth

Willful lips bleeding truth

tremble to reveal my love,

blooming inside your youth.

Taste the confectinoary harvest

With the tongue that sings

of new life, that breathes

inside your eternal springs.

Invade my abandoned heart

with kisses reigning thunder,

before reality crashes through,

leaving me lonely to wonder.

African proverb

2009-11-14T23:22:00.000+08:00

Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up
It knows it must run faster than the fastest lion or it will be killed
Every morning a lion wakes up
It knows it must outrun the slowest gazelle or it will starve to death
It doesn't matter whether you are a lion or a gazelle
When the sun comes up, you better start running

AND I WILL NEVER STOP RUNNING

hehee, i'm watching 2012 tomorrow morning ^^

new hairdo

2009-11-13T21:42:00.001+08:00

lately, i feel that i'm not myself anymore
where's the old me ?
Jen, the enthusiast, the initiative
a levels syllabus now is up to the point
that i call it as "DISASTER"
my practical exam preparation,
my theory exam preparation
Unit 2 ,3, 4 - Chemisty
Unit 2,3, 4 - Physics
Unit 1 & 3 - Economics
all in one !!
i'm going to explode soon
the more i try to do pyq,
the more i don't know how to solve it -.-
this is S-T-R-E-S-S man

so....

today i went to Atelier for a haircut
from long hair to a short bob hair
i just don't care how i look in this new style
maybe this is one of the way i release stress uhuh?

(p/s:the stylist said my face structure looks like a manager )
with a serious, sharp look
~ well maybe i am in 5 years later :)

...

2009-10-08T17:45:00.000+08:00

TOO MUCH is my problem now.

i care too much
i work too much
i want too much
i hope too much
i think too much

but where's the line ?
how much is consider as too much
just tell me right on my face if i'm too much
because i might cross over the line without knowing it

everyone's saying i'm so hardworking, too much
but my results show it all. NO !
being smart and being hardworking is a different world

if i'm going isolate myself
alone in the island,
it will be today

roller coaster day

2009-10-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

it was 7.30 in the morning when i reach HELP.
i sat in the computer lab, slowly took phone out
enjoying my FLY FM channel trough phone while FB
until Justin arrived early also, and met me
we sat in front of the computer for like an hour
until it's nearly time for our 10 am class
WEDNESDAY Is Just Not A Good DAY anymore for her
everything seems to be not in the right place for her
she came into the class late for there're not
enough parking space in the main campus.
when she walked into the class with a super red shirt
on it, it's about something vulgar.
my friend who sat next to me and i laugh at her shirt.
there're not enough space for her to fit in our row,
so she ended up sitting alone in the last row
when class finished, she the usual talker does not
sound even a word, joke, or comment anything about lecture
as usual, we 3 walked to kpd d for our chem lab
my friend and i even said something's wrong with her
so quiet. we took the lift to level 3, i said it's very unusual
to be so quiet today-must make her laugh. i crap + lame joke
in the lift until we reached our class. i put my bag on the
table, settled down, went to toilet and came out.
the silence beckoned. she burst into tears
everyone who's there go near her and ask if she's alright
a born emphatic. she's so stress. i understood feelings
very well. helpless and poignant feelings started
crowding my senses, filled with heavy self-pity.
i'm scared to approach her and ask any further reasons
from that moment, i understand this
"a true friend will cry for you"
i closed my eyes, letting my feelings construct a picture,
memories of yesterday's lameless sms making up
broken pieces of a puzzle. i heard it's some personal
matters which's intricating her.
i just want to tell her that she's not alone and be strong
hope she will gain back her true self tomorrow, PP !

dead blog

2009-10-02T12:00:00.000+08:00

so sorry
my blog is dead
YES you're in a dead blog now
i'm really busy with my life
spending less time sitting in front of the com (YESH !!)
at least happy with the busy and hectic schedule
mock exams, piano , college, housechores, birthday etc

"live like there's no tomorrow"
cause i'm scared of one day my world will be in a sudden dark
*touchwood*
oh it's already 12.00am ::happy mooncake festival everyone::

what do you see in me

2009-08-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

Non-Fiction
Title : Personality Plus
Author : Florence Littauer

Natural Blends : Melancholy/Phlegmatic
They are both introverted, pessismistic, and soft-spoken.
They are more serious, they look into the depts of situations,
and they don't want to be center stage.
They follow the advice "Speak softly, and carry a big stick"

Complementary Blends : Choleric/ Melancholy
A combination which fits well together and completes the lack
in each other's nature.
They make the best business person because the combination
of Choleric leadership, drive and goals with the Melancholy's
analytical, detail-conscious, scheduled-oriented mind is
unbeatable. Nothing is beyond the range of this combinatino.
If they set out to remake a mate, they will keep it up until
they have a perfect product.

Opposite Attracts : Sanguine/Melancholy
dumb-smart
weak-strong
wrong-right

Last week, i did Dermatoglyphics Code Test
The report was out and i find out
1. i use more of my left brain
2. i have 8 Ulnars and 2 Whorls print
3. i only have 6 suns, 6 moons, and 4 starts
4. tends to dislike physical touch
5. hard to express feelings literally

and more....
(p/s i need at least 8-10 Whorls finger printed XY )

him again =]

2009-08-21T12:42:00.003+08:00

how can any music be hotter than this ?

WANG LEE HOM

18th August 2009

2009-08-18T18:31:00.000+08:00

18th August, the day i failed my theory grade 7

B.U.T.

today is great

except the sweat, 5 hours waiting, bored, sun burnt

i woke up at 5.45 am because my instructor will

be fetching me at 6.30 am to Bangi for practice

reached Bangi at 7.30 am, there were a few Kancil cars

5 of us who went from the same centre

take turns to practise Bukit, Parking, 3 Pointer

I only managed to practise one round because it's 8.00

time for the first batch exam

my instructor registered my name and so

got NO.21 !!! 3rd Session which is at 2.00 pm

WTH,,imagine from 8.00am i have to wait

and wait, and wait, and wait, and wait

for my name to be call at 2.00 pm - 5 HOURS !!

the day was so hot, freaking hot, damn hot,

i'm so sun burnt now...you can call me an Indian

okay, my turn now at 2. 15 pm

BUKIT
i went into the car
waited for instructions to go up the hill
steadily, i press oil, remove clutch
slowly , i aim for the yellow line
BRAKKKEEEEEEEEEEEeeee...
FUH,,,just in time.
double check by peeping my head out
smile, cause it's accurate ^^
raise my hand high up
the time to go down now,
as usual, i press oil, release clutch
until car's lifted up and lastly release handbrake
Broomm,,
Boooomm,
B-ROOOOOOOOOOoo-m
i had already release the clutch until like no more
but there's no sign of car lifting
i don't care at that time
my right leg take in control
pressing harder, more oil for it to speed down
at last, i manage to go downhill without reversing
~phew

PARKING
i sweat like a pig in the car
no air-cond
my eyes got bitter once the sweat rolls down
the steering is like 100 degrees celcius
can grow blisters if your hand is holding it for a while
i'm not worry about this part at all
i did perfectly nice, straightly, within 1 minutes
yay !!

3-POINTER
i love this part
my fast and furious part
did it correctly as well
YESH YESH YEshh !!
i passed =))

ON THE ROAD
slow in turning steering
brake not on time
overall fine

oh, good luck for those who's taking
driving test tomorrow
i've done and completed mine
(fyi, i'm darn scared at first because
the first few candidates for my batch
fail for bukit) one by one getting out
of the car,,,so chammm

Grey's Anatomy

2009-08-17T12:29:00.002+08:00

"We're adults.
When did that happen
and How do we make it stop " ?

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing.
It turns up when you don't really expect it.
It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale
may be slightly different than you dreamed.
The castle, well, it may not be a castle.
And it's not so important happy ever after,
just that its happy right now. See once in a while,
once in a blue moon, people will surprise you ,
and once in a while people
may even take your breath away.

How do you know when how much is too much?
Too much too soon.
Too much information.
Too much fun.
Too much love.
Too much to ask...
And when is it all just too much to bear?

Communication.
It's the first thing we really learn in life.
Funny thing is, once we grow up,
learn our words and really start talking t
he harder it becomes to know what to say.
Or how to ask for what we really need.

2009-08-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

"am looking at you

and my heart loves the view "

it's been a while

2009-08-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

frm left : ( Jen, Xin , Kat, Kah Mun )

AHHHHhhh,,,,i smell my friends

*wink * wink *

this is the first time after spm

we hang out like this in pavillion

"Katrin, Kah Mun, Xin Ni, Stephanie and I"

too bad, Stephanie couldn't make it last minute

that's ok - we'll have another few more rounds

next time when we have holidays =]

As usual, Kat shop the most.

Xin Ni and Kah Mun got the second most

ME, just window shop =p

(no money, no talk )

But it's fun though, walking around,

fitting room, camwhore, talk yeah..

Thanks Kah Mun for fetching me back to lrt

Call my mom to pick me up from Bkt. Jalil Station

mom : you go to wash and cut your hair arrh ?

me : NO ,,!! why ?

mom : why so straight and looks fresh

me : inside (" WEEEE ", it's natural )^^

Reached home at 6.15 pm

PHEW ~~, 15 minutes to prepare for my piano class

Just in time, very tired during the class

My mind is half-awake kekekeke

Ok, have to go now for TVB drama

Bye..

R.I.P GARY ROBERT

2009-08-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

A REQUEST FROM THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE HIM

I am writing to you because you have mass-appeal.
If you can blog about him (pretty please) and enable
the public to be more aware of the story perhaps his
death was not in vain.Last Sunday (2nd August 2009),
my friend, Gary Leon Robert went missing after
completing a 22km marathon (Adidas King of the Road)
around Shah Alam Stadium organized by none other
than Adidas Malaysia. On Monday (3rd August 2009),
his body was found in the Stadium basement. The
cause of his death is dehydration*, however we believe
that perhaps the real cause of his death is negligent.

On Thursday, 'The Star' published 2 pages on how
successful the event went but nothing on Gary.
**http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=/2009/8/6/
central/4445539&sec=centralTo be fair to the media,
I believe there are a number of online articles of him but
they are relatively short in details. (google them!)
http://www.mmail.com.my/content/9901-
gary%E2%80%99s-mysterious-death
http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/articles/
15deadmarathon/Article/index_html
http://mstar.com.my/berita/cerita.asp?file=/2009/8/3/
mstar_berita/20090803
211452&sec=mstar_berita

Participating a run may seem harmless, but in the light
of his death we need to take steps to improve the facilities
which sport event organizers provide and the care which
paramedics give.The Mayor of Majlis Bandaraya Shah Alam
said the Gary was given the best medical treatment.
If he had, he would still be here with us.Gary's friends and
family are dying for answers and they want the
Sports Ministry to have an inquiry on his death.To do so,
they need support from the public. Please help us out and
click on the site. (I believe my friends are doing up a petition
via the website)Details of events following his death are
published on this site
*unless he has an inherent biological condition in him which
lead to him dying from a thirst, his death was SO avoidable
Last words: What we want is to have safe venues, proper
facilities and health care for sportswomen/men. The more
people hear of his story, 'perhaps' organizers and
-providers will pull their socks up.Please do contact us at
justiceforgaryrobert@gmail.com for more details of his story
or you would like to know more of him.

[ may you rest in peace Gary Robert ]
you're someone who's nice in heart,
always putting a smile to everyone u see,
a all-rounder, sportsman, and everything

2nd term holidays

2009-08-11T12:21:00.000+08:00

basically,
just staying at home
going for driving lesson
did my internship with CMD
doing homework
practising piano
participating in 30 hours famine
hanging out with friends
hopefully, going to Singapore
end of this month =)

this routine has been repeatedly going on
for this 3 weeks holidays
~sigh
(anything new ? call me ! i wanna join )

total solar eclipse

2009-07-22T21:15:00.001+08:00

The solar eclipse of July 22, 2009 was the longest total solar eclipse of
the 21st century lasting as much as 6 minutes and 39 seconds in some
places. It's also known asa the "BIG MONSTER ". Malaysians can observe
only partial solar eclipse between 8.23 am and 9.48 am on Wednesday.
There will not be a longer eclipse than this unitl 2132.
This unexpected decent of night a day seems to be the root cause of
all tales,beliefs and traditions.
1. A woman was killed in a stampede at the Ganges river in India where
devout Hindus had gathered for the eclipse.
2. India superstitions based on HIndu mythology says and eclipse is
caused when a dragon-demon swallows the sun.
3. Sun rays during an eclipse can harm unborn children.

Now, here's my superstitions version of eclipse today
I remembered that today I have Chemistry Lab class at 12.00-2.00
I prepared myself for the class by bringing lab coat, wearing long pants,
with covered shoes, bring notes for lectures...F.i.N.e
Suddenly,,,when writing on my econs past year question while
Ms. Leong dictate the answer O.M.G !!!!
I realise i did not bring my Chemistry Lab Manual
i turn to my right hand side and gasp
"I D-I-D N-O-T B-R-I-N-G L-A-B M-A-N-U-A-L "
guess who's on my right ? who else during Econs ?
my Econs buddy, my saviour ! thank you Rachel Chiah
i'm so scared cause you know, MISS KANA's class
will never even turn to my right or left to talk to friends
she sms Erwan to ask whether he has lab today
*tink* oh YES,,YES ,,YES !! he has 10-12 chem lab
just nice, i got his lab manual " pretending" it's mine during lab
phew, luckily ms. kana did not check on my book =)

Secondly, while doing the experiment with my partner
another Racheal ( the evil one ) ^^ heheh
instructions says heat GENTLY, how to heat gently 0.0
ok, i'm the one who's heating the boiling tube by holding
it with the wooden test tube holder
then, i heard a "POP" sound. it's not the hydrogen "pop"
sound test. i know something's wrong .
i look at racheal lum with my thoughts went blank
"shit, i need to pay for the apparatus i just broke"
and it's not cheap at all. a stupid thermometer cost RM 80
boiling tube cost RM 20, mini measuring cylinder cost around
RM 5. The price is just crazy. i can skip my one meal for that.
when we went to tell the lab assistant, she said NEVER MIND
i was so happy..yahoo. maybe she's in a good mood
if not i'll say goodbye to my RM 20 =(

thirdly, when i got back home.
grandma told me there'll be no water supply from 7 pm onwards
okay,i'll bath earlier today
However, by 5.00 pm the water supply is in shortage already
which means we'll be stinky for the whole night
nolah...we went to bkt jalil club to bath
got back home at 7.30 pm and had dinner

1st camp since college

2009-07-09T18:15:00.000+08:00

i'm leaving for a camp tomorrow early EARLY morning
it has been sometime, erm a year i did not go for camp
This time, i'm going to Nomad's Earth Camp, Gopeng
at Perak.

July 10th
--team bonding games and energizers + tone setting
-- trasfer to Gua Kandu for caving and flying fox
-- Drum circle

July 11th
-- Earth Camp for Solid Foundation
-- back to kl

Around 20 + SaSarians will be joining
it's time to enjoy and be crazy !!!
(p/s, i have not pack yet )

2009-07-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

nice picture of the day !

( from left : me, Jien, Yi Theng, Jeremy , Hui Chi )

IT's CHEER 2009 COMPETITION

and a mini concert its 10th years anniversary

as usual, the crowd, musics, dance, shouting

i reached Bukit Jalil at 12.30 pm,

there's already a massive crowd

i couldn't see where's my friend sitting

but..the competition had started a few hours

don't care, i sat randomly at the orange team

although i'm wearing all black =)

i missed out my school performance

never mind, i still get to see the big hit which's

the ending

Championship : Blitzers, BU4

1st runenr up : Shirtlift, SBU

2nd runner up : Calyx, CHS

4th : Titans

5th : Dynamitez , DJ

Best Teacher Award : Pn. Azwana, MURIEL

Best Showmanship : Pirates , Cochrane

Best Dress : Calyx

Best Supporter : Blitzers

it's a bit disappointed that Vulcanz all Boys did not get any

to me they did very well ! Good job boys

2009-06-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

" some people are born great,

some people have to search deep inside
for that spark of greatness inside them "

that's life

2009-06-24T14:50:00.002+08:00

friends, family, and everyone

i'm sick, so sick

terribly..HELP !!

not that i have H1N1 lol

i've turned into a monster

a shopaholic monster during my holidays

there're too many things i want

window shopping is just torturing

no money no talk - that's it

I spent hundreds on last week in MV

now, i keep on thinking the bag, shoes, clothes

that's so attracting my money

if i spend again it will be like hundreds..NOooo

ok, Jen think this way, Economics thinking

we're under economic downturn threat

should not simply spend, instead

it's time to save BUTT..

if i save too much, paradox of thrift will happen =p

damnn..i'm gonna go back and get mua shoes !!

1. 2 pairs of shoes

( wedges, and heels )

2. padini authentic tops

3. bags

i need a big chain to stop me from spending

or maybe self-quarantine eh ??

p/s : transformers 2 rock my day

woke up early to watch at 10.30 am

but still it's worth it xD

2009-06-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

As I glance through

My friends profile

Something is not right

Maybe i'm too sensitive

But, this's how i feel

I learnt to

Put less expectations

Or else I may end up

Feeling disappointed

The remedy is tears

Although it's very unlike me

A good cry

Will release built-up tension

If only I allow myself to cry

I failed and

I couldn't stand being a burden

Owing infinite debts to my parents

They smile and look at me

Deep down, they're counting

And now,

It's going to be

A part of my life

Pleaseeeee,

don't let any of this be real

Only thing that

I must have fallen down

and hurt myself badly

YES ! I must get up

My courage is my shield

I must get out of this hell

Tomorrow

If tomorrow comes

T___________________________T

to my papa

2009-06-21T19:29:00.000+08:00

Sunday
the day i hate the most
the day i wanted it to fly by
the most boring day
which can kill me
5 more hours to a new day....

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY !!
thank you for becoming my shelter,
my teacher, my hero, my ATM,
my supporter, my problem solver
and my everything i need when i'm a kid
~ i love you , dad ~

this week, i'll be playing and practising
:: EL CHOCLO by A.G Villoldo
:: Turkish March by Ludwig Van Beethoven
:: Invention No.1 in C major by J.S Bach
:: Sonata in C by Mozart
so many songs and time consuming
all to be done in a week
worstill, i might be skipping classes shhh...=p

outdated post

2009-06-16T20:19:00.000+08:00

13th June

Finally, had the FIRST GATHEIRNG with my primary mates.

After over 6 years of not meeting up, they still look the same

but prettier, taller, and going to different direction in life

To those who came, thank you so much

Kai Lynn, Eunice, Weng Yi, Win Li, Steph , Pooi Yee and I

For those who did not come for a reason

you're forgiven, for the sake of not ffk us during the next one

For those who make excuses and ditch us

you're just like a expired friend or i so call

not friend but just a person i know when i'm a just a girl

7 of us had lunch at Kim Gary, chatted for 2 hours non-stop

Biasala, girls rite. Something funny happened when we asked

one of the waiter to take a group picture of us. It was blurred.

The reason he gave us was, there's strong wind blowing to his

direction. As a result, the pic was blurred -.-

14th June

Woke up at 8.oo am. Still sleepy as i slept at 12.00 something

last night. But for the $$ sake, I'll opened my eyes wide.

Sis fetched me to Federal Hotel, KL. Got up to Level 2 Ballroom

for the ceremony to start. Met my tuition mate Shwen Nee.

Miss her, haven't see her since after SPM. While waiting for

my name to be announced, there were countless yawning

from ME XD. I got a medal stated 14 As in SPM wohoooo!!

the truth is, i only took 11 subject in SPM lol. it was a mistake

At the end of it, i took the medal and exchanged for the correct

one - 12 As and of course claimed my MONEHHH baby !RM 12o.

Later, went to TS with a bunch of people who got their money as

well. Around 20 of us dominated the cinema for The Blood movie.

To me, it was a lousy movie. I'll give a rating of 2/10. Dont watch !!

Jia Woon and I took the LRT back while everyone dismiss.

The "lan si" lady did not let me to purchase a Bkt. Jalil ticket for

RM 50. That's what i have. She's indeed a lazy pig to use her brain

for the remaining change for me. PIG HER ..then i terpaksa to use

my kasturi money =( Since no one at home to fetched me from

bkt. jalil station, i sat at Hang Tuah station for 45 minutes,

watching the train passed by many many times. At least, it's

safer than me waiting outside Bkt. Jalil standing alone.

Got back home at 6-ish, dad fetched from Chan Sow Lin station.

15 th June

Argh...I had to wake up veryy early these days. Lack of sleep T.T

Gotta get up from bed at 6.45 am because my undang test is today.

Aunty fetched me to some place at Bangi for the test. Teeheeee....

i passed only taking for once. Before that, i don't know why i study

like SPM mode for just a simple undang test. That's me !! My

bad habit i think. Finished the test at 9.15 am.

Had a great day overall because it started off with good news xD

Luckily, sis had not left home to college. That means, I can go MV

to hunt for clothes, shoes....etc. I missed the time when Pui Yan

and I did the hunting thingy last time at MV. Today, i walked

and walked and walked from shops to shops from North to South

Court non-stop. From Topshop, Zara, PDI , Padini Authentics, F.O.S

Reject Shop, MnG, Vincci, Nose, Vad&Vid, Eclipse, Vincci Accessories,

Elle, ......It's been some day i did not spend on shopping. I love them.

They filled my days. In the end, sis picked me up after college.

must try

2009-06-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

What Am I To You ?

Dearest Jennifer
I____you.
You have a nice ______,
You make me _____,
Someday I will ______,
You + Me = _____,
If I saw you now I'd ______,
I want to _____you,
I would build a ______just for you,
If I could sing you any song it would be ______,
We could ______under the stars.

Love,
_________
(P.S. _______.)

If you've nothing to do when reading this,
i'll hope to get some reply from you
Just anything, dont' feel bad to write something bad
I'm not going to kill you ^^
send this to jety_91@yahoo.com and put under
JEN-MUST TRY as the title

my holidays

2009-06-09T19:35:00.000+08:00

went back to HELP College to finish my internship
did 5 hours today . sitting and helping around the whole
day in Customer Marketing Department.
get a free Krsipy Creme doughnut from Aunty May
i always get food when i work with them =))
they just love to feed me ..hahaha
well, i've been developing a new habit lately
which is jogging everyday after class for an hour with mom.
right now, my leg is aching. this proves how long i had not
been exercising ever since i left school.
to those college student out there, better stretch urself and
get some exercise before your muscles and fats hardens
as COLLEGE = FATTENING !!!
my schedule for tomorrow is attending 5 hours driving talk
read this funny conversation i heard in CMD today :
some parents were asking quesitons to HELP counsellor
PARENT : What's so good in HELP. Any differene in Taylor's
and HELP ??
CMD ppl : cus HELP's president is more handsome, more good
looking than the others
while i was working there, i laugh alone because of that lmao XD

random

2009-06-04T13:44:00.000+08:00

a bird might look like

it conquer the freedom

to fly, explore and wish

being it fed everyday,

by its owner

being it living,

with its owner

being it watch and praise,

by everyone

leaving the rest of the birds

out there thinking

it's living in a perfect life

getting its daily neccesity easily

but, lonely and boredom

kills this bird

which is actually

living in darkness, anxiety, restriction

as the bird you think it's perfect

is living in a cage

with a padlock

cover with a black cloth

making it a barrier

to the world

that's waiting for the bird

to travel

i'm guilty

2009-05-23T16:01:00.000+08:00

" live in my heart and pay no rent "
" till i feel that i'm worth the price "

so beautifully written
having cold war in msn
at the same time, MSN IS BORING !!

intertwined by lee hom

2009-05-17T17:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, 17.5.2009

hey, it's your birthday

it's WANG LEE HOM 33th birthday today

a guy whom God created with multiple talents

good-looking and a noble heart

touching the hearts of everyone through his music

and proven with his voluntary work as well as his

10 adopted Laos kids!!

i have a feeling you'll become a good father xDxD

i wish you healthy always, be our music man forever,

write lots of music, and dreams come true

i'll support you till eternity no matter how

u've become part of my inspiration in life

HOT NEWS :

1. him standing as a warior in a movie

( will be out in M'sia around October )

2.so shuweett of him

this cute little boy gave him a flower and a pic of himself to Lee Hom

during a HK concert thingy.

Jeremy, the boy asked Lee Hom to sign for him in his photograph

GUESS WHATT...after a week, the picture was sent back to the little

boy together with the pen he gave on that night !!!

so thoughtful of him for remembering his fans request

diary of a girl

2009-05-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

Girl seeks to log all her observations of a society
that stereotypes every person and hides the obvious
unpleasant truths, that she feels is better off being
discussed and recognized.If anything, for a life lived
that is full and complete and not shortchanged.

Ladies, let me share with you on some fundamental
truths about guys. You can choose to dismiss the following
as the ramblings of an androgynous disillusioned female
liberalist ( if you're a guy reading this ) or the gloves off
tell all expose of society and men.

What Men ( Boys ) really really want.....
It all depends on the AGE. Boys will be boys, always.
When they're 15-20, they're a total waste of your time,
other than the fact that they're perfectly used for
carrying your 1 tone school bag. Boys this age, want nothing
NOTHING other than the S*X word. Nothing else is on
their mind other than the question - Do you wear a skirt ?

How close they are to you depends on how physically
PRETTY you are vs. their Self Confidence. Most boys
this age have little of either experience or confidence. Or
maybe they both come together ? They will rank Girls in
order of priority totally based on ONE criteria -
your looks and your body !

To commit yourself to a boy at this age will only reflect
either 1. your naivety belief in fairy tales
2. your commitment to dutting off all future choices
and learning new experiences.
Wake up Sister ! You're going places. You'll never stop
meeting the right guy.

Boys..when they grow a bit older, say 21 to 25, start trying
to land the perfect fish. Again, it depends on their all
important sense of self worth. They will go on the dating
game with as many women as possible under the pretext of
looking for the right one. Doesn't hurt to have some fun while
you're at it right ? That's their motto.

Boys again, when they start figuring out what they want ,
they're usually 26-30 years old by now, then start to be more
stable and reliable companians to have around. This sentence
should be followed by the usual fine print t&C.

Then again, this is not advocating that you only date older men,
lest you think this is an endorsement for sugar daddies. Just
open your eyes and control that inner core of your heart.Most
Boys are not worth your heart till they are "old" enough to
take care of it.

Let me see....if you really fell that he's Mr.Right. Sorry to burst
your bubble, Dear. It's all relativity. The truth is that there is
no Prince Charming with a White Condo in Hartamas, charging
to rescue you on his White Porsche 911. There's only different
guys, in different phases of their lives, who react to you based
on what they want at a give time.

And there is only the person that you are most comfortable with.
If he makes you laugh and entertains you...that's a bonus.
You will probably fall in love with the "Perfect Guy" and break
up & repeat the same spin cycle..at least 2 times - in today's
modern society context - before you can find the "Perfect Guy"
you can spend the rest of your life with.

End of the day you'll settle down with the guy, who's fault
you can put up with - and vice versa. Live life - live it loud.
Get burnt, get smarter, don't repeat the same. Don't live
to please others, aim to be Happy =). Find value in yourself
to contribute to your world at large.

xoxo

when you believe

2009-05-06T19:35:00.000+08:00

good , better , best
my results are improving but at a very slow rate
what happened ? i need vast jump in my marks not tidsy bitsy =(
so disappointed with myself
done mistakes in simple question
silly, dumb, not enough exercise
which i couldn't forgive myself in being so not smart
why others can do so and not me ?
it's my problem ~ sigh
what i gotta do now is DON"T GIVE UP and keep on
pratising, be independent and stand up, figure out
and not runaway, be optimistic, there's still 1 month =)(
i rely too much on tuition last time
i miss my tuition teachers, they guide and encourage me a lot
just hoping for an average 65 % in all my subjects

"I AM GIFTED SO ARE YOU "
-everyone is the same, don't blame-

[listening to liu lei shou xin - lee hom]
it soothes my mind now

my music man

2009-05-03T16:57:00.002+08:00

i don't need SUPERMAN

i don't need SPIDERMAN

i don't need BATMAN

i don't need BRUCE LEE

i don't need JACKY CHAN

I WANT MY MUSIC MAN

WANGLEEHOM::MUSICMAN

*hearts*

i keep my promise. my first concert at the age of 18th

is Wang Lee Hom with his Bahamut electric guitar

costing around RM 1 million.

some words to desribe that night, 2nd of May

the best Saturday eva in my life =))

although i can only see a 5cm Lee Hom

but i'm hypnotise by the 2 big side screens at

the side of stage showing lee hom

my hearts want to hold or touch him

which reminds me of his song "Heartbeat"

the opening ceremony started of with Daniel Lee and

one girl dunnoo who ( wasting our time ) only..

BOOOHOOO.after their performance

the whole crowd shouted

LEE HOM!! LEE HOM!! LEE HOM!! LEE HOM!!

TO WELCOME HIM OUT

we started screaming like mad when saw him coming

down on a lift holding his precious propery"guitar"

He started playing and singing his rock songs

1. What's wrong with me

2. W-H-Y

3. Fang Kai Ni De Xing

4. Luo Yue Gui Gen

5. Xing Zung De Ri Yue

6. Ai Ni Jui Deng Yi Ai Zhi Chi

7. Gai Bien Zhi Chi

8. Heartbeat

9. Wei Yi

10. When You Wish Upon A Star

11. Kiss Goodbye

12. Forever Love

13. Hua Tian Cuo

14. Lung De Chuan Ren

15. An Chuan Gan

16. Di Yi Qing Chen

17. Liu Lei Shuo Xin

18. Ru Guo Ni Ting Chian Wo De Ge

19. Chu Ling Shen Chu

20. Nu Peng You

21. Yi Shou Jian Dan De Ge

22. Ni Bu Zai

23. Ai De Gu Li

24. Dan Chen Xiau Ai

25. Can You feel My World

26. Zai Mei Yi Bian

27. Gai Shi Ying Xiung Dau Bai

( sorry for the awful madarin; i'll pick up ^^ )

his birthday is coming soon, so the crowd wish him

HAPPY BIRHTDAY earlier. Homaniac fansclub

even present him a video on malaysian fans wishing

him one by one....i bet he'll be very touched when

seeing that video

i like this year concert. it's so vibrant, full of energy,

a lot of interaction with fans, everyone stand up and

sing along at the end calling for ENCORE, wisel being

blown after every song just loving it, really did enjoy

myself in the crowd =)

Lee Hom introduce himself as being a music man

to everyone, hoping to connect him with fans through

music.He mentioned that his dreams came true on

that day. Apart from that, he wished our dreams came

true, work hard for the dream we have, the earth is safe

for everyone, and i can see that he enjoy himself on

that night too because

a) he asked us not to sit when reaching the end

cus he said COME ON, the CONCERT JUST BEGIN

- i got so high when he say so

b) he played 4 instruments spontaneously

- grand piano -bahamut guitar - drum- violin

c) at the end , he wanted to throw goodbye kiss to us

but he says since swine flu affects the world now,

better don't HAHAHA he's such a joker

so he presented KISS GOODBYE awww...

d) there were a few slides on him being a hero as a music

man in the comic character

e) he rap and dance

f) have some sing-along-with fans

Na-Na-Na-Na-Na-Na

g) so jealous to those who can shake hands with him when

he came down from the stage

h) he purposely reserve May concert for Malaysia

fans- he know we're the best =p

good connectivity with him, Katrin and I ask

MEH LEI GA (what's that) before he said so when

holding the big envelope with Birthday wishes from

Malaysian fans~so proud

there's too much love i want to say here

waiting for tomorrow newspaper eagerly

waiting patiently for Lee Hom next concert in Malaysia

and if possible, wanna travel to Asia wherever his concert is

i just want to see him face to face, shake hands and have

a lovely picture with him someday =)

i guess after tonight, i'll be more crazy on him

he gave me inspiration in life, learn mandarin,

know all his songs well and musical instrument

God created someone who's so handsome, smart and

talented - the one and only on Earth

i'm going to get his 09' concert dvd when it's released

p/s picture will be post later k

Law

2009-04-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

www.malaysianbar.org.my/nylc

the website which will be useful to me in future !

Accidents & Personal Injuries
*Administrative & Constitutional Law
Arbitration & Dispute Resolution
Aviation Law
Banking and Finance
Bankruptcy & Insolvency
Commissioner for Oaths
*Civil Litigation
Consumer Protection
Construction & Engineering
*Corporate/Commercial Law
Defamation
Criminal Law
Customs & Immigration
Divorce & Family Law
Employment Law
Environment Law
Extradition & Mutual Assistance
Government and Infrastructure Contracts
Human Rights
Insurance & Reinsurance
Intellectual Property
International law
Internet Law
Islamic Finance
Landlord & Tenant
Notary Public
Petroleum & Gas
*Property & Conveyancing
Shipping & Admiralty Law
Sports law
Syariah Law
Taxation
Trusts, Wills & Probate

hmm...which one will i see myself in the future ?? lol

i need these job to give me luxury in 5 years time =)

OHY YEA, and I WANT LEE HOM !!! can't wait to see him on 2nd of May 2009

weeee......just so happy today cause finished econs mock exam

he's mine =p

i'm scared =s

2009-04-28T17:14:00.000+08:00

it's nothing funny here, not a drama or story i heard or
read in a book. this is true, happened to me today. well,
only if you're in my situation you'll feel what i'm trying
to share here.

Today's not a good day for me, i had my Chemistry
replacement class at Lab 3 today with Ms. Kana. She gave
back our test papers. Her comment on my result upon
getting it from her is " Hmm, JENNFER no improvement at
all , maintaining ur poor marks - still the same as the previous
one " it's sad to hear ur lecturer saying this to you.
I don't understand W-H-Y. i've do all i need to score -
revise, practise, pay attention. i'm just not getting it no
matter how much effort i put in it. and this is just UNIT 1.
well, it seems like i'm weak in Chemistry since secondary.
this is the fact ! i just hope i can score better , at least show
some improvement JEN !!!
argh ~~~i don't want to waste my time and money in it

At 1.30 pm, my sis fetched me back from HELP College.
Next stop, is to fetch my brother after school in SMK Cochrane.
In the car, my parents called my sister telling her a breaking news.
MY HOUSE NEARLY GOT ROBBED !!!!

YES ! you did not read it wrongly

nor i type for fun.here again. SOMEONE TRY TO

BREAK INTO MY HOUSE THIS AFTERNOON.

It's already a sad day for me, then now something shocking
happen in my house. My grandma is alone at home =(
anything can happen in just that moment.
sis : hello ?
mom : where are u ? at home ? someone try to break
into the house. they said all the house door is open...
sis : WHAT ? WHY ? i'm fetching jennifer. how's grandma then ?
mom : i don't know. someone called me and tell me that
( while both my parents are having lunch with
customer in restaurant )
can't listen to the phone call very well, it's noisy here.
sis : B.u..t BUT before i left the house, everything's lock.
grandma is in the living room alone. where could she be ??
mom : i'm really not sure where's she.
sis: ok ok. i try to get back asap.

IN THE CAR, ME, SIS, AND BRO SO SCARED..
all of us no mood already. before that i even sang the
songs played by FLY fm, lalalala ..in just a second,
everyone is so quiet. sis turn off the radio. we imagine
things like what about dad's passport ?
(cause my dad just came back from China yesterday,
haven't unpack the luggage yet )money ?my money ?
plasma tv ? laptop ? where's grandma ? is she kidnapped ?
will it be gone or empty by the time we reached home ?

BROOOOMM.oooooomommm.....

reached home at 2.30 pm, saw a police car outside my house.
looking at my grandma and uncle outside sitting on the swing
my heart is relieved. she's safe.
According to my grandmom,
while she was at home alone in the kitchen,
someone rang the doorbell,
she saw a Gen 2 orange car parked outside my house
2 guys came down from the car and rang the bell
my grandma ignored them since she doesn't know them,
so she continued her chopping and cutting
vegetables in kitchen after a few minutes, she heard some
sound from the side door while she opened to go out
to the garden and collect clothes,
she 's facing two guys with a bag of "tools" to break into the house
my grandma shouted PENCURI !!!PENCURI !!!PENCURI !!!
the 2 guys ran like shit leaving their bag on the ground
the got off by jumping over my small gate, tripping and falling
my neigbours which is 4 houses away, reported to the police
it's surprisingly that my grandma's voice and hear from
that far distance .

after some time, mom and dad came back home
all the way from office in Kajang. happy that no one is
injured and nothing's missing. my heart tells me that there
will be a 2nd time. i'm so scared =( it's unsafe here
btw, we paid every month for the security fees and
this is what we get ?! not fair ..the security guard says he
was not around as he's watching
2 ppl fighting in the neighbourhood when the incident
happened -.-

my weird things

2009-04-26T23:53:00.001+08:00

outdated tagged lol
but as promise, i'll get it done by hook or by crook
Directions: Once you've been tagged, you've to write a blog or a

note on Facebook with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals

you. I don't feel like tagging people. So , i modify

abit of the instructions here okay ?

Jennifer Eng Tsai Yen here,
1. wish to finish her A Levels fast
2. hope to spend more time with my old mates ( i've miss a lot =( )
3. needs to get herself busy so that i don't feel bored
4. feel like participating in volunteering work
5. looking forward to 30 Hours Famine 09'
6. will go for a bagpack tour around the world someday
7. am not Ss AT ALL
8. don't like to be a half-banana ( will be learning madarine in december )
9. loves Lee Hom very much ..can't wait for his concert !!!!
10. enjoy fairytale movies but hate them for giving me an imaginery
image of prince and princess in reality
11. will not be involve in relationship before Audrey Leow gets a bf
( p/s: c how important u're to me ) hahaha
12. feel like laying on a big land rich in grass, watching the sky while
having some breeze..ahhh
13. miss the annual gang outing
14. wants more freedom from parents - at least allow me to join outing
more frequently ( i'm so anti-sosial =( )
15. thinks that sleepover and pillow talk is comfortable
16. hate to do house chores

hoorrayy no class for tomorrow, that's the reason why i'm still
awake blogging. this means final exam is coming soon haiss...
these people in HELP are so SO SO SMART. kinda scary =s

2009-04-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

My 18th Brithday

2009-04-24T14:57:00.000+08:00

Finally, i'm turning 18th on 14th April 2009. What's so special about being

18th ? they say it's the legal age for u to drink, smoke, clubbing..etc..etc

nah...i'm not one of them - still being a good gril image =p

well, my 18th birthday is special because i've birthday eve celebration

as well as on my birthday itself. what else can i ask for ? it's so nice, i'm

extremely happy and keep smilling the whole day HAHAHA.

special thanks to those who celebrate and wish me. you guys deserve my

BIG FAT KISS..muAxXX !

On the 13th, there was a small celebration at Secret Recipe with Rachel Chiah,

Erwan, and Jasmin =)

frm left : jasmin, rachel, ME, erwan

me with my econs partner's mom

me & Jasmine

my adventure friend, Rachel

the girls

paying for the bill...

paying for me as well, awww ~

first time hearing there's no lighter in a cake shop lmao

mud choclate cake and i

our lunch. also one of my luxury meal in HELP

Wong Yi Ting my SASA intern partner

Audrey Leow and i

schoolmates since Secondary 1

Asther Low a.k.a Hebe fanatic

Kimberly Chong

i thought that's the best on my birthday eve because the next day

most of us ( SASARIANS ) will be on duty for Debate Competition

BUT

the 14th of April 2009 turned out to be a big surprise early in the morning !!

Gifts from my college mates

thank you : rachel lum, rachel chiah, ee von, janice, jia yu, sher lynn, sher min, pei pei

AT NIGHT , HOME

then, cake again at night by my family member

me with my cake at home

( this time, got light on candle )

IN THE MORNING, HELP COLLEGE

everyone arrive at 7.30 am for some short briefing

on our duty....SUDDENLY,

before we dismiss, Melissa announce that it's my birthday

SO...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to u

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to jennifer

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to u

* clap * clap

it was a surprise, didn't expect them to know

( btw. thanks to Adrienne - she tole Melissa )

there were like 60 + of them singing although

some may not open their mouth cause who's Jennifer ??

=.=

Yee Xian and I

while the students register themselves

Me and Adrienne Hwang

us again

I HAD A GREAT 18TH BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION.

although it's nothing grand or expensive,

but i appreciate it a lot.

those who wish me : chen li, marilyn, seet kin, rachel chiah, rachel lum, adrienne, jia yu, audrey, chang pui yan, amelia, ser lynn, ee von, yi ting, yee xian, sue anne, lavanial, aveena, ser qi, yen yee, hari kumar, kah meng, dipti, michelle, geshwinder, Chang, pui shing, mimi, pei pie, erwan, jasmine, mr. yap, Philnix, lwy hong, reshwin, stephanie, hui chi, angeline, elyn, stanley, charissa, si-on, eunice tam, joanne yan, rachel law, peivi,tze pei, kimberly yap, danielle, rachel quek, katrin, janice, sher min, mom, dad, sis, bro1 and bro 2

(= another memorable day in my life =)

A Levels Politics

2009-03-28T12:59:00.000+08:00

Date : 27th March 2009
Time : 1.30 pm - 3.30 pm
Venue : Conference Hall, Main Block

I learnt A LOTTTTT although i didn't run for any pose xD
By 1.00 pm, the room is half-filled with A Level students
It was raining at the time we left from UOA -- Wisma HELP -- Main Block
We travel a lot in just a day, Sreaming..Laughing..Giggling...Worrying under
the rain. First time, sharing a small umbrella with 3 friends. But it fits ^^
cause Sue's back wet, my left part body wet, plastic bags for Rabin campaign
wet as well.

1. PR Exco shortlisted :

(niraj, su yuen, sean )

su yuen

NIRAJ PATEL

Sean Soon

2. Marketing Exco shortlisted :

( Ee Lyn, Jie Cong, Kimberly )

Kimberly

TEE EE LYN

Yeoh Jie Cong

2. Social Exco shortlisted :

( rachel quek, ilyana, vanessa )

ilyana

rachel quek

3. Sports Exco shortlisted :

( yew eng, melissa )

melissa

NG YEW ENG

4. Treasurer shortlisted :

( Rachel Chiah , Amanda )

AMANDA

Amanda again, singing Love Story - to promote herself

Rachel Chiah - my econs mate

Charmanjeet

5. Secretary Shortlisted :

( Juliana Jee, Ee Von )

one of the senior fakely cried while Juliana's singing I'll Stand By You )

JULIANA JEE

Ong Ee Von - the smart one in my class

6. President shortlisted :

( Talitha, James, Rabin , Quang Hui )

Talitha

Tan Quang Hui

( The President )

RABIN

( The Vice- President )

GOoo Rabin
Rabin's loyal supporter --aww

James Yap setting his hp alarm for 5 min

Cus he says it's his habit as a debater, still figuring the topic that Jason gave

there, his speech nothing related to the topic -.-

TODAY : had Chemistry class

went to CMD for 30 minutes

hand in the letter to Mr. Yap

gain good experience

(i'll remember wud Mr. Yap said bout me hmph !! )

Jogoya Buffet Lunch

2009-03-15T22:05:00.000+08:00

Date : 15 th March 2009
Time : 11.00 1m - 2.00 pm
Venue : Starhill, Reelish

For everyone's information, i'm the earliest to reach !!!! *applause for me*
I reached Time Square at 9.00 am, saw the sweeper, security guard, cleaner
and darkness in the alley. That's what you saw when u reach before the shops
are open. Meet up with Pui Yan at 10.40 am.

since only 4 of us arrive before the buffet starts, we camwhore

location : entrance of jogoya

( frm left : john, pyan, jeffrey, jennifer )

A.H.A...lam fung pic below

NO. of course he's not there, but just realise that john looks alike to lam fung

in terms of face structure not the whole face *cough * cough lol

really lar, that's what i saw and think about it

to have the same thinking as me, pls scroll up and down and focus on their face

here, the funny part how this picture was taken. really have to tell. we asked

the waiter who stands at the entrance for help, she took 2-3 minutes to get

this photo snap. ANDDDDD, the zoom effect is manual ! she ask us to walk in front

again...and again until a certain point ...STOP !! okkk she says. then, waited for

3 mintues again. AT LAST ! we got this picture taken

they were only 8 of us, but we drank around 30 + cocounut in 2 hours time !!

(p.s we're better than the monkey ..bwahahaha)

tak jadi effect of everyone's holding their coconut

( using PUI YAN's PHONE !! )

AHh....there it goes. with Yu Shaun holding the camera this time

(cause he claims that he has the longest hand)

that's our table 176

(not 126--hui chi you know why i say so hor)

this crab is so tempting but dunno how to open and eat =(

ended up taking picture with it

pui yan with the dimple

and jen with the eye bag..haiss

this picture takes a so..ooOO long for the "organiser" to be ready

the perfect one

afta uhmmm...about 5 shots ???!!

john also beh tahan her. haha

tada. at last group picture of 8 - so called the family picture ! xD

everything's perfect for today's outing

i gain

calories, get to exercise my cheek muscles too much, how to use

jogoya's lavotary, and meet new friends

TOO BADD,,,audrey and yi theng are not here to join us =((

2nd May 2009

2009-03-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

HIp..Hip HOo-ray !
Yay ..yeapz...yayahoooo

i'm going to his concert

i promise my first concert must be him

and i made it xD

La.laa...laalaalaa

weeEEE.....come join me, we'll go together.

IT's WANG LEE HOM concert live in Malaysia !!!

Date : 2nd May 2009

Venue : Bukit Jalil National Outdoor Stadium

Ticket price : VVIP RM600 (6th to 12th Row) / RM398 / RM318 / RM268 / RM198 /

RM 139/ RM 88

i've provided the seating plan :

SPM results day

2009-03-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

i'm happy and satisfied in just a split second
when i first welcome back to school by my junior, (Pui Quan)
saying hello and congratulating me with my results
that moment, all i can think about is REALLY ? IS IT TRUE ?
WHAT DID I MISS FOR MY A2..ssss ?
and woooshhh....it was all gone now
there's a list of why's it good and bad for me today

BAD:
-dad rush and urge me to wake up as early as 8.oo am
while i am so sleepy
-can't fix the printer to print something for Ms. Khoo early in the morning
-heart beating...beating...and beating rapidly when reaching school gate
plus after calling Stephanie and ask how's it in school ?
-don't love myself after comparing my results with friends
-still don't have my freedom to hang out with friends whenever i wish
-sadly,i thought i got my RM 5000 extra now doooom
-the subject which i hope to get a1 got a2 =(
-didn't get to see and thank all the teachers who taught me
-my competitor since form 2 got a much better 10x result than mine
even though, last time we're a difference of a few marks
-hate myself for complaining the bad about my family
-just getting such a result, by right must be better than
those not taking tuition

GOOD:
- at least , or i say ( luckily ) i'm one of the straight As scorer among 7
IF NOTT..
a) malu sial
b) hate myself even more
c) disappointed
d) feel like it's pointless to struggle and suffer for a year
e) look down by people
f) will not get rewarded as in money and lee hom concert ticket
-ponteng my Moral Studies class at 4.00-7.oo pm
( cause that time feel so " high " on my own result )
- go karaoke for an hour with friends in Neway, Time Square
- ya ..ya..ya hearing good news from most of my friends getting
straight As
- I DID IT..after all the hardwork i put in ; tuitions; exercises ; seminar
- i proved that without going to WOW Tuition workshop, i can still get all As
- the feel of that happiness and contented in that few seconds

Anyhoos, i'm glad and proud of my friends who got ALL A's
they are gan hoi yee, kor michelle, wong yi theng, tan siew bee,katrin chan,
caryn, shewn nee, daphenie, rose siow, rachel chiah, xi yin
( from my guessing : kristen, sher min, pei pei, ee von, aveena,
ee jane, lavanial, janice, davin, adrienne, yee xian, sue anne,
...and more

What "U" say really make sense to me now
" THERE"S A BIG DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GETTING A1 & A2 "
[ this only happen if i know that i'm just that close to reaching the max ]

IF, i got B for any of the subject i think i will say it differently
" why so ugly....how nice if all are A - even all A2 also happy already "
[ that's what in my mind after spm exam while waiting for result ]

Promises : since i miss it in spm, i'm gonna get u this time in A Levels
for getting A for Physics and A for Chemistry !!!

Well, i'm just not good enough. I need to soar and aim higher in future xD

waaaaa...extremely tired !

2009-03-07T22:35:00.001+08:00

well, i promised to talk about the part which i like the most in
P.S I Love You...there you go
it 's in page 458 and 459 chapter Forty-Six
...'Ah,so this is the famous envelope,' Daniel said, picking it up from
the table. Holly's eyes widened, she felt protective over that envelope
and wasn't happy with him touching it, removing Gerry's touch
from it.
( Daniel, don't simply touch ppl's thing without permission )
' December,' he said reading the outside and running his fingers along
the lettering. Holly wanted to tell him to put it down but didn't want to
sound so psychotic. Eventually, he placed it back on the table and she
breathed a sigh of relief and continued to fill the kettle.
( Say it what you wanna say, don't beat around the bush )
' How many more envelopes are left?' Daniel asked, taking his overcoat
off and walking over to join her in the kitchen counter.
' That's the last one,' Holly's voice was husky and she cleared her throat.
' So what are you going to do after that.'?
( Be clear on what you're going to say, cause it can make her misunderstands you )
' What do you mean?' she asked, feeling confused.
' Well, as far as I can see, that list is like your Bible, yout Ten Commandments.
What the list says goes,as fasr as your life is concerned. So what are you going
to do when they aren't anymore ?'
Holly looked up at his face to see if he was being smart but his blue eyes
twinkled kindly back at her.
' I'll just live my life,'she replied, turning her back and flicking the switch
on the kettle.
' Will you be able to do that?' he walked closer to her and she could smell
his aftershave. It was a real Daniel smell.
( why not ? don't stand near me ..)
' I suppose so,'she replied, uncomfortable with his questions.
' Because you will have to make your own decisions then, he said softly.'
( I don't know,,,please don't ask me ..don't make me scare of you )
' I know that,' she replied defensively,avoiding eye contact with him.
' And do you think you'll be able to do that ?'
Holly rubbed her face tiredly. 'Daniel,what's this about ?'
He swallowed hard and adjusted his stace before her, trying to make
himself comfortable. ' I'm asking you this because I'm going to say
something to you now, and you are going to have to make your own
decision' he said. He looked at her straight into her eye and her heart
beat wildly.'
( my head is so pain now,,i need to leave )
There will be no list,
no guidelines,
you will just have to
follow your own heart'
( But if i really have left, i wouldn't get to listen to this
truly meaningful words for me )
Holly back away him a little. A feeling of dread pulled at her and she
hoped he wasn't going to say what she thought he was.
' Em......Daniel,..I d-don't think that this is......the right time to....um
........we shouldn't talk about.....'
' This is the perfect time ,' he said seriously. ' You already know what
I'm going to say to you and I know you already know how I feel about you'
( yea'll right Holly,,i support you )
Holly's jaw dropped as she glanced at the clock.
It was twelve o'clock.
( 12 o'clock, that reminds me of Cinderella fairytale)

~ the end of my P.S I Love You version ~

NEXT,,,i'm going to blog about my first SASA Internship after getting the
photos from Jun Chong (a.k.a Jay Chau...and Jessie 's little brother)

ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzz..

special monday break

2009-03-02T22:09:00.000+08:00

~will update on today's one hour tour to Sri Cempaka, Damansara
( thanks for the ride, Rachel's "mom" )
~the part which i like the most in P.S I Love You by Cecilia Ahern
( thanks to audrey for the lending the book )
~hope to get an orange solution for chemistry practical experiment
tomorrow xD

TA. DA.

have to go for my critical reviews assignments and econs homework !

BBQ party

2009-03-01T16:49:00.000+08:00

SASA BBQ Party

21 February 2009

Winsor Tower, Sri Hartamas 1

6.00pm - 10.00pm

ee lyn being "throw" into the swimming pool
now, justin's turn

first attempt

sue ann with her food

jaclyn chitty and ...

games session

( katrina, aveena, ee von, kimberly, mershell, hong lian )

group picture 1

( quang hui, john, justin, sean, kai wei, hong lian, jung chau, melissa, dipti,

ee lyn, sue anne, ebe,yen wei, adrianne, nigel, nathiya, cheryl, mershell,

charmaine, sukhpreet..and i miss out a few )

group picture 2

group picture 3

( the effect of having two camera at a time )

group picture 4

group picture 5

group picture 6

jen, ee von, aveena

joey, sue anne, jen, adrienne, talatiana

( we were "pretending" busy so that won't get

thrown into the pool =p )

p/s...just for u to see what's going on in SASA, - ee hwa..in u.s.a

Tuesday = dead meat day

2009-02-04T16:58:00.001+08:00

Chinese New Year is over, it's time to get back to college life again.

Slept at 11.00 pm the day before, so that i have a fresh mood on

tomorrow's class TUESDAY.

Woke up at 6.00 am reluctantly as class starts at 8.00am

First lesson ( 8.00 -10 .00 )

Doing some physics practical experiment.

Using some of the basic measuring instrument to measure metre ruler,

wire, plasticine, chips and papers.

Second lesson ( 10-00 -12.00 )

NO break, have to rush to lab 5 for another experiment again.

By the time i reached, Ms. Kana had already started calling the attendance.

Just in time,,woooshh. Cus the venue for our practical class changed.

Half an hour listening to instructions and procedures.

It's our time now. YAY !

Exp 1 : Preparing copper (2) sulphate pentahydrate salf from copper (2)

nitrate.

The truth is, now i'm conducting REAL experiments with my own hands.

Not like last time, the whole class watch the teacher doing only

Worsttill, i did my experiments for PEKA test only, just 4 experiments in

a year.That's all. My copper (2) sulphate solution overheats and bumped

out a few times. Rachel and I are like "what are we going to do with that"

Then, without any delay i close the gas tap. The flame goes off and heating

process stops. Our solution ended up too little for it to crystalize to form

nice blue solid salt. We failed to get the final product.

Conclusion : Practical lessons are hectic and time consuming

(p/s: i got my first time eva laboratory coat =p)

Third lesson ( 2.00-4.00 )

It's econs class now. Which is my most relaxing and enjoying lesson.

We studied on unemployment and inflation. Something interesting here

cus it's what's happening to the world right now. After taking econs, I

have a better understanding on why this happen? wud's GDP, CPI..etc

Fourth lesson ( 4.00 -7.00 )

Stupid LAN class again. I'm attending Malaysian Studies on every

Tuesday.Ishhh...assignments haven't started yet but datelines are

way ahead waiting for me. Again, studying some of the common sense

and what've already known in the society which is the culture of the

races in Malaysia. Did some of the discussions on culture, believes in

ethnics and chinese new year celebration. The good thing about today is

i get to know 2 new friends, Rachel Yau and Janice. HIII.

WORST TIME

finished LAN class, waiting for my parents to fetch me.

I hate the TRAFFIC JAMS. Hate to stand an hour and got back home

late at around 9. Dinner late, homework to be finished.Hate that it's

frigging cold and it's still raining outside. Everywhere's also jam.

Legs are tired of standing like a pole.Hand muscles are cramp as a

result of holding the books for too long. Mouth not speaking for an hour.

The sky is dark and everyone's got back home comfortably enjoying their dinner.

I need to tell myself, it's just for this four months. After that, i'm

going to enjoy my Thursday free from class moment =)

moo - - moo year 2009

2009-01-27T12:57:00.003+08:00

cny eve
nothing special, had breakfast at 11.00 am at Wong
Kok Restaurant. then stay at home the whole day.
reunion dinner with the same person " dad, mom,
sis, me, bro, bro, uncle and grandma "- that's all.
went to Carrefour for last minute grocery shopping.
met my ex-tuition boss with his family. Stop by
and talk with my mom about our studies and so.
got back home at 11.00 pm. Praying ceremony starts
12.00am, waited it to finish until 1.30 pm while staying
up late to check on my facebook. As a result, i have
a pimple on my cheek as my cny gift !

cny day 1
it's a vegetarian day to all of us. Ended up stomach easily
hungry on that day. No matter how much i ate. This
cannot eat that cannot eat cause most of the tidbits are not
vegetarian. The day is sunny and blazing hot. Sweat
the whole day.Plus, NO WATER SUPPLY the whole day.
So, best thing to do is sleep. I slept from 1.30 pm
to 3.00 pm. Dad ask whether want to watch movie in cinema.
Sis, bro and I watch The Wedding at Jusco Tasik Selatan.
While walking in the shopping complex just for the sake of
air-cond and to release boredom at home, i saw my ex-school
mates which is my primary mate as well - Elyn Kwan who's
shopping with her mom. After the show around 4.00 pm, went
home to have dinner again. Still no water. In the end, we have
a simple dinner at home. My body stinks because haven't
shower on that day =p. Then, we went to Bukit Jalil Club
to have out shower. That's the only place we can clean
and do "our business". =.= Settle all the cleaning ourselves
part, reached home at 9.15 pm. Have movie marathon.
First, watched CJ7, Titanic then Die Hard 4.0. Among all
Die Hard 4.0 has the most climax part and a good thrill movie
to watch. Enjoy watching it ^^.

cny day 2
woke up at 10.00 am. My neighbour ( aunty ) came to the house
and visit. Received ang pau. Then, had roti canai for breakfast.
All the chinese restaurant are closed due to cny.So, left with
not choice which is the mamak stall. The system of ordering
food and paying in the mamak stall is very messy.
Sis : 1 roti telur , 2 roti biasa segi empat.
roti canai man : ok ok. duduk dulu.
after ordering food, the man came and take down drinks order.
Sis : 2 teh ais, 1 milo kosong , 1 cam'
roti canai man : tadi order apa ? 2 roti telur ??
dad lose his temper : sekarang, saya repeat oder k ? Tadi sudah order
1 roti telur, dan 2 roti biasa segi empat.
roti canai man : sorry, sebelum ini kamu bukan order dengan saya.
( WHAT ?? isn't it the same ordering with anyone of the mamak guy ?? )
after a while, my roti telur is ready.
roti canai man : Mau kuah apa ?
Me : GULA dan DAHL.
roti canai man : brings me gula only
Me : fine. i ate without the dahl. cannot tahan their inefficiency already.
later, it was my sis and bro roti canai ready to be served.
while eating, the roti canai man came again with another plate
of roti telur.
US : kita tak order ini. bukan sini.
roti canai man : oo. he brings away the plate of roti telur.
chew, bite, dip, swallow, digest, sip...etc
Dad : Eh, Bill.
roti canai man : boleh cakap tadi makan apa ?
Me : what ? tadi takde tulis ke ?
Sis : tell him again. 1 roti telur, 2 roti biasa, 2 mee hon goreng +
telur, 1 cam, 2 teh ais, dan 1 milo kosong. THAT'S ALL !
roti canai man : ape ? TEH O AIS ?
Me : laugh out loudly. instead of that's all, he got listening problem.
He listened it as Teh O ais ??
Dad : mari sini, tengok macam mana kamu kira.
roti canai man : shows him the paper that he scribble on
Dad : complains about the price cause wanna make him
confused.
----went home-----

prank

2009-01-23T22:57:00.002+08:00

it happened on thursday 22.1.2009
attending my physics class as usual with LSM
with the usual routine of copying notes
and waited for 6 hours before my LAN classes
ee von : ei, today got moral studies ?
me : yes. why ?
ee von : bcuz yesterday mine was cancelled.
me : oh, then i better go and check with Mr. Kumar
in ADP Department.
she bring me to the place, and i asked him.
Mr. Kumar : YES. THERE IS A CLASS GOING ON TODAY.
me : disappointedly, walk away from the room.
hang around in level 2 block e with ee von.
around 11.00 i took the shuttle bus to the main block
to meet with katrin.
*tick tock * tick tock * tick tock
me : where are u ? i'm in the main block already
kat : sorry, i'll be late.
at last, she came at 1.15pm =.=
not that you want it, cause it's her mom birthday that day
so i had lunch with Lee Seet Kin at Ali Maju.
the place is just surrounded with people who smokes,
talk with extremely high amplitudes, noisy...
that's why when we talk, we have to shout.
which makes both of us laugh non-stop
go to mcd to wait for kat before her 2.00 pm class
talk for a while, then walk her to main block for the next class.
around 3.30pm, i took the bus back to wisma help for my moral studies.
by the time i came down from the bus, i saw evenna taking the taxi back
home. which suposingly, having the same moral class as me today.
walk alone to level 2, saw that the lights in the room are still off,
no one's inside leaving a notice on the door.
saying moral studies on 22nd/1, 4.00pm -7.00pm is cancel !
i was so mad, cause i spent my 6 hours waiting and now its CANCEL
i tell eveyone i saw that day about the moral studies class after my
6 hours of waiting. seriously, it's not easy to do nothing for that
period of time. make me play hide and seek that moment.
i rush back to kpd e, find mr. kumar , comfrim with him again.
i told him what i saw on the lecturer hall, and he says he can do
nothing with it as the notice is not issued by him.
instead IT WAS THE ACT OF SOME PLAYFUL STUDENTS
WHO DID IT DURING WED CLASS. wtf. then, i run back to
wisma help because it's nearly 4.10pm already. it's so tirring plus
need to make sure my attendance counts for that day, so i cannot
be late for 20 minutes. Call my sis telling her that, it was a mistake
and i can only go back at 7.00pm today and not 4.00pm.
P/s: to that student, i pray hard u fail in every exam.
yea "you got it " - the whole class "foolishly believed"
that the notice is true.

assignments to go

2009-01-17T21:03:00.002+08:00

LAN subject = assignments
1. Malaysian studies
~ individual assignmetns
( consisting of 600 words of a topic given )
i chose Question No. 14
( title : review on sex education in Malaysia )
Dateline : 24/2/2009

~ Presentation 1
( title : Basic right in the constitution - kinda boring to me )

Presentation 2
( title : Functions of a ministry in Malaysia )
- boring rate : 9/10

3 Critical Review on happenings in newspaper

2. Moral studies
~ individual assignments
want us to fond in moral but doesn't at all
in fact, make us hate it more now with lots of work
( title : attacking another country for the sake of elminating
terrorist, with the principle of social morality theory
state your opinion on the issue =.= ) wth
AND the content must be not less than 10 pages
Dateline : 5th March 2009

~ group assignment
which includes written and presentation
(title : Exploring adolescent sexuality, behaviour and HIV
at least something interesting than the individual ones xD )
Dateline : 2nd April 2009

Life for the first 4 months in college is not something to look forward for me
Because of all the DEADLINES and super late LAN classes starting from
4.00 pm - 7.00 pm. Make my energy level on Tuesday and Thursday
thirst like drought. Tired and busy.....haiz.

first time

2009-01-09T21:02:00.004+08:00

For the past 11 years, I have never fail in my piano exam.
Neither practical nor theory exam. But not for this time,
my teacher told my mom today that i fail my Grade 7
theory exam =(.I feel like such a failure now. BOO to me.
Yea, now i have open the door for anyone who hates me
to have the chance to look down on me.When my mom
told me, I pretended nothing happen. Indeed, i'm very
disappointed with myself. I always have life inspiration
and aim high on myself. That's why I'm a pro pressure
supplier to myself. Well, the main reason I failed this time
is because I take my sister pass year questions book as
a reference and not doing it myself.
Apart from that, I'm in doubts and having dilemma when
choosing the subject that I'm taking for A Levels.
Mathematics is the subject giving me a big question mark.
I give up in that subject.YES, GIVE UP ! I never hear
myself saying that word to any circumstances that I
encounter. I feel so lost in 2009. Being separeted from
friends, school, direction and teachers, I'm lost. I'm a
nobody but just an ordinary girl. Feeling so unintelligent
as compared to those taking Further Mathematics and Law
in A Level. I just could not imagin where I stand when
compare to them. I'm not enough, not nerd enough,
not brainy enough, not smart enough. Tell you, they
have incredible aim after A Levels such as applying to
the top universities in the world ( Oxford, Cambridge,
Harvarc, Yale, Princeton etc. ) or going overseas for
degree. As for me, i'll do all of it locally cause no $$.
Right now, I need to find the momentum that will
burn my spirit up like before. I can't sit down and
let it be. " Fall down seven times, stand up eight "
I wonder whether I still have the migh to change.
God, tell me what shall I do now ?

frustated easily today

2009-01-05T22:40:00.002+08:00

it's tiring
my first day of A Levels started at 9.00am
since i don't know how to drive,
having transport problem,
i have to wake up at 6.00 am every morning
whenever i have 8.00 am class
never have i wake up that early
even when i'm in high school
listen to some briefing on each subject from lecturers
omg, i'm among the 12 students among hundreds
not taking mathematics as part of the subject
i think after 1, 1/2 years, i will take 5 mintues
to figure out 1+1= ? gosh my brain is going to be lazy
found out which group i am in ,
unfortunately, none of my friends are getting the
same group as mine
well, it's ok. it's time to make friends and
to get out from our comfort zone. I'm a big girl now yea.
i get so hot tampered today after reaching home
maybe it's because of too tired, waking up at 6.00 am
the time table was hard to refer at first
too many little words in a box
my eyes will go blind searching for my group,time,day
after knowing who's my lecturer,
i feel like changing to a better one
at first, it's started of nicely. everything fits perfectly.
no clashing of classes. but after i rearranged .
everthing goes haywire =( anyone, teach me how to refer
to this messy table. indeed, none of them are helpful
yea, now i know when they need help you need to help.
when i need help, they're the first to go.
good for you !!!!!! * clap * clap
so sleepy at night when watching astro tvb series
then, went to night market
came back at 10.30 pm, with stomach being filled
with foods and drinks
that's my first day
till now i'll write, have to go to bed now
tomorrow waking up at 6.00 am again =.=

new year resolutions

2009-01-04T17:57:00.001+08:00

Here comes 2009.

Waving goodbyes to 2008.

Another new year awaits.

To create something great =)

My list of resolutions :

~ get to know all the Sasarians achievers

~ obtain 75 % and above for all exams

~ finish my 148 hours services in HELP

~ must laugh at least once a day

~ keep in touch with old mates

~ stay single

~ finish my piano until Grade 8

~ perform in my friend's concert (piano)

~ make friends with whoever it's

~ stay healthy

~ less on comp, and more on books

~ etc.

waiting

2008-12-30T14:14:00.002+08:00

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares

Someone to love with my life in their hands

There's gotta be somebody for me like that

Cause nobody wants to do it on their own

And everyone wants to know they're not alone

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there

my heart

2008-12-30T00:56:00.003+08:00

As I sat here

I was trying to think

Of all the times

You hurt me

And made me cry. . .

Hoping and wishing

It would make me

Like you less

But it didn't

Because all the times

I could remember

Were the ones

When you showed me

That you cared. . .

I didn't want

To believe that

You ever did

You walk by me everyday

Everyday you take your time out

To listen to me

You talk to me

Well, I talk, smile and listen too,

But inside I'm hurting

Deep down it hurts to be with you

Because I can't promise you

As I'm just your friend

If you really love something

Set it free

If it comes back

It's yours, if not

It wasn't meant to be

making decisions

2008-12-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

At some point, you have to make a decision
Boundaries don't keep other people out.

They fence you in.

Life is messy.

That's how we're made

So, you can waste your lives drawing lines.

Or you can live your life crossing them

But there are some lines...

That are way too dangerous to cross.

eve,christmas,back

2008-12-28T02:02:00.000+08:00

24th-26th December 2008

This is my first time celebrating Christmas

not in Malaysia, but in Singapore

This year theme was "Sweet in Singapore"

Well, next time when i have the $$

I'll celebrate overseas where

I can watch snowflakes, snowman, skiing...etc

lazy, i am right now
so, let the pictures speak

~ at jurong bird park

~ at hotel 81,dickson

~ the Merlion

~ Orchard Road during eve

~ River Taxi

~ Haw Par Villa

~ Sentosa Island

places i wish to visit

2008-12-23T13:23:00.000+08:00

Barcelona at Spain

The Leaning Tower of Pisa

La Scala Opera House

Florence at Italy

Rome

Zakopane at Poland

Gdansk at North Poland

Prague at East Europe

Oxford University at United Kingdom

Aurora at Norway

Keukenhof Gardens at Netherland - it's be.eu.ti.ful

Amsterdam at Netherlands

Les Calanques at France

The Louvre at France

( famous for it's the home to the Mona Lisa )

The Cathedral of Notre-Dame at France

Place des Vosges at France

Mont-St-Michel at France

Tivoli Garden at Denmark

Vienna at Europe

Niagara Falls at New York - achieved in 1996 =)

St Augustine at Florida

Borobudur Temple at Indonesia

Angkor Wat at Cambodia

Taj Mahal at north India

Mt Fuji at Tokyo

San Francisco at United States

Hollywood at Los Angeles

Miami Beach at Florida

Statue of Liberty at New York City - achieved in 1996 =)

Namib Desert, oldest desert on Earth
(watch stars at night, fire performance, and hot air balloon ride)

Victoria Falls at Zambia, East Africa

Tibet

mirror lake - dunno where

lavender farm - dunno where

Japan

Holland

Germany

autumn in Korea - achieved in 2007 =)

comet watching , dunno where

Switzerland

yeah , now you know I HAVE BIG DREAMS

monney do matters on EARTH

2008-12-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

should i or should i not ?

1. purchase RM 140 for my idol's album

it's ALEXANDER WANG LEE HOM album

with his autograph on it

releasing on 26th in Taiwan

here it's, the album cover--->

2. spend RM 130 for ice skating class

erm,,it's for 3 lessons only

an hour per lesson

oh yea, i received some souvenirs from my mom and sis

China trip.

There are skirts, bags, dolls, sharing a boots with sis.

Thank you !!!
Out of a sudden, i miss my South Korea trip last year.
Well, i just hearts travelling.

how to make orange juice ?

2008-12-18T21:24:00.006+08:00

( jangan perasan ok )
arghh...Dad force us ( lil bro and i ) wake up early at 8.00am
feel so sleepy right now, it's still holiday for us ok.
it's alright too sleep until 10.00am, but not to my dad -.-
took breakfast at nearby restaurant, went back and start
watching One Litre of Tears, a touching yet sorrow for the
girl, Ayo in the movie. Diagnosed with mutation spinal
cord cerebellum. Very scienctific huh ? { skip }
Let's move on to our class today,
which is to make a succulent drink for a hot day !

STEP 1 :
Oranges planted by farmer for a few months ??
I'm not sure weih, just crap ok.

STEP 2 :
Oranges were pluck and displayed on market to be sold

STEP 3 :
My mummy bought the oranges from the market and put
it into a basket

STEP 4 :
I saw so many oranges not eaten by anybody in the kitchen.
STEP 5 :
AHA ! I decided to make it into orange juice . ALL 30 of them.

STEP 6 :
Put all the oranges into the basin, preparing to cut into 2
(Muahahah oranges you gonna die this time )

STEP 7 :
Squeeze them hard, turn, twist, my hand OUCH, like gone
through a hard hand muscle training for FREE
STEP 8 :
Oh yeah, ready to drink ! Add a few ice cubes and AHH..
delicious

i'm in a good mood today , weehaaa
i'm free from being the house slave :
- do the laundry
- fold the clothes
- wash the plates
- sweep and mop the floor
- look after my little brother
- clean the house
BECAUSE, my mummy and sister are going to take over
the job tomorrow night.
i'm attending the Dinning Etiquette programme at HELP,
then going to KLIA to fetch mom and sis.
will be back home very very late.

broken

2008-12-17T12:21:00.003+08:00

I thought I had already been through and gotten
over it a billion times before. So why is it coming
back now ?It's not like I want it to happen.
Sometimes bad things happen for no reason, no
purpose. How can i leave the past behind, when it
keeps finding ways to get to my heart. The truth is,
everyone's going to hurt you.

(to the one who always claim that i'm not good enough )
I'm sorry. I can't be perfect. I can't live up to your
expectations. YOU used to said everyone around you
have no brains, doesn't want to think, stupid and etc.
Yeah, so what ? and YOU think we didn't felt the same
about you ? It's just that we keep it inside and wouldn't
tell you the truth cause it's a great disappointment to you.
Words hurt more than anything else can. Because they last,
sometimes forever.

I'm barely eighteen. I've had my share of hurt and pain and
life's a living hell sometimes. Nobody seems to understand
what I really need.Oh, for the love of peace, please leave me
alone ! Stop asking ! Stop telling me what to do ! How would
you know ? You live in a totally different world from me.
I'm nothing compared to your expectations of excellent
acheivement in life. You always think you are right, and
everyone is wrong. Why can't you just accept me for who I am?

Dad's too busy with his company, Mom just doesn't seems to
to care much about me. Not like they're to be blamed. Now,
I can't get it out of my head, it keeps haunting me.
I'm strong now, but I learned the hard way. Friends say I
take it too personally, and that's because I'm grow is such
a way. That I'm in a war with myself. This house occupies
9 people but it's so empty. Like how I feel inside. Pure,
empty nothingness caused by pain and failure that YOU
always put me in. Numb. Everything I try to do ends up
a mistake to YOU. Another and another until it's all a heap
of failures on top of strong-willed but utterly useless work.
YOU say it's entirely for your own good. Gosh, if it's for
my own good, why are you being so mean when I try to
explain myself. YOU wouldn't listen to my reasons before
blaming and accusing me.
All I wanted to do was collapse in someone's arms and
cry today...but there wasn't anyone there to catch me.
Leaving my teddy and I alone.

my friends

2008-12-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

Walking with a friend in the dark ,
Is better than walking alone in the light

What is a friend ? A single soul dwelling in two bodies

My best friend is the one who brings the best in me

Friendship doubles our joy and divides our grief

Good friends are hard to find,
Harder to leave,
And impossible to forget

Continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours

Most people walk in and out of your life,
But only friends leave footprints in your heart

Friendship doubles our joy and divides our grief

Never shall I forget the days I spent with you

A true friend stabs you in the front

The best mirror is an old friend

Who find a faithful friend, finds a treasure

at royale bintang

2008-12-14T00:17:00.001+08:00

Meet Stephanie at Sg. Besi KFC Bus Stop, her mom

drove us ( P.Yan, Steph, and I ) to Sg. Wang. Chen Li,
Jia Woon , P. Yan, Steph and I walked for about 15

minutes to Royale Bintang Hotel.

We saw our juniors waiting at the lobby. They brought

us to the buffet place, which is the upper floor. Move

forward to the teachers, and say HI to them. Only

Pn. Norizah,Pn. Siti Hanim, Pn. Lina, Pn. Thilagavathi,

and Pn. Koh were here. Not all the F5 seniors were

here and a few of F4 AJKS and prefects attended this

farewell.I ate a dish which consists of variety of salads,

then fish and chips, dim sum, chicken, nasi lemak ,

sausages and sky juice. Hmm,,choices of food in Royale

Bintang Hotel not as many as in Park Royal Hotel. So to

all juniors, better go for Park Royal Hotel next time.

Chat with my friends on our 2009 plan, form 6 ? college?

driving license and so on. Took a few pictures, and left

the hotel at about 3.00 pm. Angeline, Tan Eva and I

walked to Sg. Wang to meet with Angeline's mom to

fetch us back. Returned home safe at 5.15 pm. Rested

until 6.30 pm had my shower and helped my mom and

sis to pack their luggage for China trip tonight.

Settle everything, dad fetch them to Kg. Baru for the

KLIA train.RM 27 per pax one way. Sadly, we have to

walked in the mud to the station as the place was closed

for cars. Ewww...my leg =( My mind was just thinking

about reaching the station as soon as possible because

the route was dark, stinky, and muddy. Now, i'm in the

net searching for the topics taught in A Levels

subject. Here are some pictures of the day --->

THE F5 SENIORS

2nd row frm left ( sk, ang, amelia, v.hui, chen li, p.yan, jen )
1st row frm left ( steph, s.ling, j.woon, y.yee, aud, h.chi )

ME WITH THE F4 JUNIORS

frm left (li yuen , p.kuan, nabilah , hui jin, michele,

pay zhi, jen, wai ann, li wei, eva, xue li )

SK and I

in case u ask , she's Seet Kin, not the SK 2 =p

PUI YAN and I

the prom girl who waits for diamonds tonight

SUE LING and I

my acc mates and friend since primary 2

US AGAIN
it's abit blur but i lke the way i sit, so polite xD

THE END

we cheers and say goodbye ='(

( where's our friend, Xin Ni and Kat ??? )

new chapter to 2009

2008-12-13T15:29:00.000+08:00

Followed my sister to HELP early in the morning, together
with my youngest brother. Asked about my SASA
Scholarship and A Levels fees and semester. Finally,
have a clear mind on what's going on to my life next
year 2009. New year, new hope. Just that now,
still thinking on what subject to choose in A Levels.
Basically, I will be starting my class daily from 8.oo am
to 4.00 pm. Sometimes maybe until 7.oo pm. Transport
still figuring how.Waited at HELP for my sis to finish
her exams at 2.30 pm, we went to Mid Valley to
watch Madagascar 2. Because of time limit, we had
popcorns and sausages for lunch. My lil brother starve
and went back home like a monster eater.Before going
back home, I bought myself a shoe from Vincci. And I
found out that each time i want to buy a shoe from Vincci
it's either left the last one, no size, or left the display only.
But not this time. I got it. I got to buy my shoe
that i like. I bought it. At last. Saw a pair, like Egypt
kind of sandals.Aiming for it during the next visit.
Regarding tomorrow,planning to go PWTC for education
fair with Seet Kin.
Well, i agree with this saying.
"It's not that the day is boring,
but it's just that you are
bored with your own life "
I've changed myself, I will never make my own life bored.
I want to shape my future from now with colours and hopes.
I believe, I can ! YES .

Genting Trip with girlfriends

2008-12-11T16:40:00.000+08:00

7.12.2008 ( Sun ) Day 1
Wake up at 8.00 a.m Took my breakfast with family at 11.00
pm.Leaving from house to Yen Yee's house at 11.45 pm.
Reach her house at 12.35 pm. Greeted her dad "UNCLE"
then saw Pui Yan coming out from Yen Yee's house. Ask her
why ? Then after telling me the whole story, I opened my
mouth and say OHH...I see. Reach at Imbi bus station
at 12.45 pm. Met with Audrey. Waited for a while at terminal 5
for everyone to reach and depart from KL at 1.30 pm to Genting.
My seat placed is 5 while Pui Yan, 4. So we chatted along the way
to Genting. Suddenly, the bus slowed down. Everyone was curious
and turned their head to the left. What we saw was a minor
landslide and tress falling down as it was raining.Ok. Reach cable
car. Four of us ( Aud, Bo, P.Yan, and I ) sat in a row. What's so
funny is that when P.Yan answered her phone call in the cable car.
Ask any of us for the details if you're interested {skip} Check in
Highlands Hotel together with Yi Theng and Pui Ying. Rested
for a while, camwhore a bit. First activity, SHOP !!! Walk around
First World Shopping. Almost every corner of it. Tummy started to
make noise.Someone suggested to go Old Town for dinner. Wow !
That so called 'frigging cold and romantic' dinner is unforgetable.
All of us orderd hot chocolate. While we were trembling, we sipped
in some hot chocolate and laughed when the wind is blowing towards
our direction. To Yi Theng and Audrey, I SALUTE because they
both wear shorts ! After dinner for RM 90 ++ we walked back to our
hotel, shower, and played some 'bintai' game. Cause Yen Yee said
she wants some bintai game. Luckily there aren't any boys around.
The IQ questions were crazy and hilarious.We were divided into 2
groups. Audrey, Yi Theng and Yen Yee in one group while P.Yan,
P. Ying and I in another group. {skip} At last, my group won.
We decided to save the punishment pass for the next coming game.
Around 1.00 a.m, everyone snooze off. Zzzzz.

8.12.2008 ( Mon ) - Day 2
Audrey woke up the earliest cause want to have a morning bath -.-.
Damn cold, still want to bath. Then YY, YT, ME, PYing, and PYan
respectively.OMG. This was the most camwhore picture taken.
IN THE CLOSET. Planned to play outdoor games but it rained
the whole day. Breakfast at Marybrown. So we changed our plan to
indoor games. First, rock climbing, arkid game, snooker and sticker
photo. Ate lunch at Burger King. Everyone was so broke afterall, thus
our dinner is instant hot cup noodles. Around 10 pm, headed back to
our room. I saw an old lady in a wheelchair vomitting, so pity ='( While
buying maggi at 77 shop, saw an old woman choosing and comparing the
price of a maggi mee. Btw, it costs RM 3.20 one ! Just an instant noodle.
Some thoughts in me flashback, why are there so many old men and women
suffering their life in such a cold weather with maggi mee ? I mean they are so
weak, old , slow and alone. My first reason that came across my mind is the pay
back of gambling in casino. So, boys and girls don't gamble. It's a bad
habit yeah. Again, camwhore, and camwhore giller giller at outdoor.
Reached hotel, I bathed first. Wah,,so refreshing after taking my
warm shower. Feel so alone from family cause all my friends were like
receiving calls from their mom and dad. Where's mine ?? Never mind,
i said to myself. After our maggi, and played 'Cheat game'. Because I
cheated the most in this game, I'm given the BEST CHEATER
award. Feel so bad though. Anyhow, it's just a game. Then pillow talk
for a while. Slept at 5.00 am. Do you hear me, 5.00 am.
Goodnight to Aud, PYing, YiTheng and myself. Cause PYan and Yen Yee
slept earlier. haha.

9.12.2008 ( Tues ) - Day 3
Woke up at 10.00 am. Hmm, counted with my five fingers, I slept
around 4 hours plus yesterday. Break my own record.
Congrates . Ate maggi for breakfast. YT went back first with her parents
at 12.00 pm. The rest still lazying in hotel watching David Beckham show.
Envied his good looking and sexy wife. Audrey's dad called. We
have to packed and leaved our room at 12.40 pm. Checked out. Then,
sat on Audrey's car back to KL. Everyone feel so heavy hearted and sad
to leave. We will miss this trip. All girls, feel so open and
bounded tougether. We're planning for an annual trip. Maybe
staying in villas. Muahahaha.

~ the end~

a story to tell

2008-12-06T05:14:00.000+08:00

it's nearly one week after spm
and it's far more boring than i thought it was
my first outing with friends is Genting Trip on 7th - 9th
so yeah, i'm looking forward to that trip =)
i found something interesting --->

A girl quickly punches a number into her phone and waits until she hears the other line pick
up. " Becky, i don't know what to do, I really don't. I love him so much and I don't think he
thinks of me that way. I mean whenever, I see him or think of him, I can't hlep it, this smile
comes acorss my face. Sometimes he sees me smiling and smiles back. That's when my knees
turn to jello and I get butterflies in my stomach. I know you think that he' is so totally
adorable and cute, but if you look past that and actually listen to what he has to say, you find
a totally different person. He's so caring and considerate and he makes me feel like I don't
deserve him. Well, actually, I don't deserve him. He's too perfect, I mean, look at all the girls
that fall over for him. I could never be one of those. Their all so pretty and bubbly and...not
me. I couldn't even start to compare myself to them. But whenever I think of him or see him,
I can't help it, I smile.I stuttered the whole time, but he was so sweet and just kept talking and
making me feel better.He's so perfect Becky, I don't deserve him, so why do I keep wishing
and praying that he notice me, why ?..............Becky ? Becky are you there ? "
"This isn't Becky."
Petrified the girl asks, " Then who is this "
" This is the guy who's smile turns your knees to jello and I just wanted to say one thing.
Everything you just said now, I've wanting to say since the day I met you. "

after reading this, think about what will you reply back if you're the girl calling =p

who's this someone ?

2008-12-04T18:38:00.001+08:00

someone is very proud of you
someone is thinking of you
someone cares about you
someone misses you
someone wants to talk to you
someone wants to be with you
someone hopes you aren't in trouble
someone is very thankful for the support you have provided
someone wants to hold your hand
someone hopes everything turn out all right
someone wants you to be happy
someone wants you to find them
someone is celebrating your success
someone wants to give you a gift
someone thinks you are a gift
someone hopes you are not too cold or not too hot
someone wants to hug you
someone loves you
someone wants to lavish you with small gifts
someone admires your strength
someone is thinking of you and smilling
someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on
someone wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun
someone thinks the world of you
someone wants to protect you
someone would do anything for you
someone wants to be forgiven
someone is grateful for your forgiveness
someone wants to laugh with you about old times
someone remembers you and wishes you were there
someone needs to know your love is unconditional
someone values your advice
someone wants to tell you how much they care
someone wants to stay up watching old movies with you
someone wants to share their dreams with you
someone wants to hold you in their arms
someone treasures your spirit
someone wishes they could stop time for you
someone can't wait to see you
someone wishes that things didn't have to change
someone loves you for who you are
someone loves the way you make them feel
someone wants to be with you
someone hears a song that reminds them of you
someone wants you to know they are there for you
someone is glad you are their friend
someone wants to be your friend
someone stayed up all night thinking of you
someone is alive because of you
someone wishes that you would notice them
someone wants to get to know you better
someone believes that you are their soul mate
someone wants to be near you
someone misses your guidance and advice
someone has faith in you
someone trusts you
someone needs your support
someone needs you to have faith in them
someone needs you to let them be your friend

(let me know if you're the someone, cause
i wouldn't have realise it without you telling me)

memoirs in pess

2008-12-03T14:39:00.003+08:00

Stepping my legs into smkpp in 2004, and now graduated
from that school on 31st Oct 2008.
For the past 5 years, i've gone through a lot. Tears, joy,
teamwork, friendships, pressure, staying up late at night,
expectations from school, parents, teachers, spending extra hours in school, etc.

(frm left :p.yan,kat, jen,steph, xin ni, h.chi)

And now, i'm free from it but i miss the time when i'm
given such workload to accomplish especially
Prefect Gathering 2007.
Well, maybe i'm just used to being a workaholic.
I will never forget all these ups and downs that
i came across in this school.
Oh yea, the food in my school canteen is like
heaven - trust me =)
The time when we were treated like robots and
multi-tasking people by the teachers are uncountable.
I remembered once i am assigned to decorate 5
notice boards at a time all by myself, ALONE.
Nobody's there to help, to stay back and to spend some
of their studies time to finish up that board.
Anyhow, i did it. Having the opportunities to be popular
among the teachers has it good and bad.
The good thing about it is, you are the first to know
the latest news happening around in school and getting
the benefits like having free lunch from the extra
food supplied to the teachers.
Sometimes, it's a necessity to look back and recap. I'm
glad that i'm given the trust and responsibilites by the
school for me to spread my wings and discover what's
my limit.
From here, i found my true self. No one can
understand Jennifer better than i do.
So, friends and family, if you tell me you know me very
much -you're lying.